Hello soul. It’s been so long.
It’s been years, and I’m talking 10+ years here, since I have dived into a book of poetry. I use to love it. I’d get lost in the words and have a ball dissecting the meaning of the text. I would indulge in owning my own interpretation of the poets message. It’s amazing how time spent away from something that you once loved doing brings a new depth and level of understanding and appreciation for that love when you re-visit it. Time away, and, may I add, a lot more life experience.
I’ve started reading The Essential Rumi. He and his poetry are completely new to me. I have dived in and I am in love.
One of the first things I read in his book was this:
I was sleeping, and being comforted
by a cool breeze, when suddenly a gray dove
from a thicket sang and sobbed with longing,
and reminded me of my own passion.
I had been away from my own soul so long,
so late-sleeping, but that dove’s crying
woke me and made me cry, Praise
to all early-waking grievers!
Has that ever happened to you? A change might have occurred in your life. A union, a move, a separation, a birth, a loss, a new friendship. And while these changes may have been difficult, heartbreaking, joyous and/or invigorating at the time, with time you might have become inspired to open yourself up to new experiences, get back to the things you once enjoyed doing and saying ‘hi’ to your own soul again.
This is happening to me. It began slowly but it has gained momentum in the last year or so. It’s hard work rediscovering yourself after being ‘away’ for so long. And it’s scary. Everything seems new and you need to be brave when admitting that you like, or don’t like, something. It’s almost as if you have been cut lose and freed, but in a terrifying sense, because now there are no boundaries to what you can do or achieve or mess up. You have to have faith in you.
My word for 2015 is STRENGTH. (You can read more about the concept and why I chose the word STRENGTH here.) One of my goals in 2015 was to strengthen my mind. I want to bust open that part of my brain that has been asleep for so long whilst I was doing other fun things like having four babies and enjoying life as an expat for 12 years. I want to exercise that part of my brain that has become sluggish and lazy. I want to make it stronger. Re-visiting an old passion like reading poetry is part of the plan. Hello soul, it’s been so long.